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Anxiety Disorder

Do you know what it's like to feel constantly on edge?
That even when you're happy and content,
the slightest thing may send you into a spiral of worry and doubt?

When things that may seem insignificant to others,
Or only mildly problematic, can cause you to panic?

Do you know what it's like to yearn for reassurance, or comfort
to need someone to just  accept how you feel and help you work
through it without judging?

To sometimes be reluctant to seek that help, because you fear
the few people you can confide in may eventually get
annoyed with you if you go to them too often
Do you know what it's like to have to endure it alone?

Sometimes my thoughts get stuck in a loop of what's worrying me
and other thoughts or concerns find it hard to break through
To be worried to distraction, unable to keep still
to be tiered yet unable to sleep?
Did you know you can literally get worried sick?

Sometimes even I am aware my fear and worry is out of proportion
but the anxiety insists otherwise.
I can't wave a wand and magically feel okay.
Do you think that emotions, especially powerful ones, have a simple on/off switch?
Do you think I enjoy feeling this way?

Sometimes the anxiety is like a creature with its own mind,
which refuses to listen to reason or be subdued.
I can ignore it or try to distract myself but its always there
Lurking, in the background, waiting to overwhelm me once more....
I like to write but rarely even attempt poetry.

This poem was/is more of a vent than anything, I just needed to get out what I was feeling somehow or explode.

I debated a long while about uploading this, but figured why not, perhaps there's a slight chance it will help people with friends/family who have Generalised Anxiety Disorder understand it a little better.

I might take this down eventually....or not. I have no idea if this is in the correct category but if not feel free to tell me and I'll change it. I wasn't sure where it belonged

Sorry this is my first deviation here, its just how I feel right now..... I'll upload happier stuff too once I can focus on my fictions again
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coolalexia Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Wow, this is pretty good. I have GAD too and you have perfectly summarized what I'm feeling right now.
You're awesome.Big Fool Emoji-1 (Thumbs Up) [V2] 
puddlethecat Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful, it may be a rant but a beautiful one at that. :D
TheFluffyKittyOfDOOM Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2011
I have GAD too...
I understand what you're going through, hang in there!
TentativeDreamer Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012
Sorry this is so late....I haven't been on this account in awhile and I've only just reactivated it...thankyou so much for your comment and support though. I really do appreciate it :)
TheFluffyKittyOfDOOM Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2012
That's alright :')
Ledzepgurl25 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2011
wow...i actually do have anxiety disorder...that was like a play by play...good job
TentativeDreamer Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2011
thankyou for the comment & feedback. :) I've never met or spoken to anyone else with G.A.D before, nice to meet you.
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