Do you know what it's like to feel constantly on edge?
That even when you're happy and content,
the slightest thing may send you into a spiral of worry and doubt?
When things that may seem insignificant to others,
Or only mildly problematic, can cause you to panic?
Do you know what it's like to yearn for reassurance, or comfort
to need someone to just accept how you feel and help you work
through it without judging?
To sometimes be reluctant to seek that help, because you fear
the few people you can confide in may eventually get
annoyed with you if you go to them too often
Do you know what it's like to have to endure it alone?
Sometimes my thoughts get stuck in a loop of what's worrying me
and other thoughts or concerns find it hard to break through
To be worried to distraction, unable to keep still
to be tiered yet unable to sleep?
Did you know you can literally get worried sick?
Sometimes even I am aware my fear and worry is out of proportion
but the anxiety insists otherwise.
I can't wave a wand and magically feel okay.
Do you think that emotions, especially powerful ones, have a simple on/off switch?
Do you think I enjoy feeling this way?
Sometimes the anxiety is like a creature with its own mind,
which refuses to listen to reason or be subdued.
I can ignore it or try to distract myself but its always there
Lurking, in the background, waiting to overwhelm me once more....